Thursday, September 25, 2008
?????????????
Sorry no post for a long time, but its just hard to sit down and write. We still don't know where we go from here. We've called around and talked with different agencies, but it's the same problem over and over everyone wants $$$ up front with no promise of anything. After Kazakhstan leaving us almost $11,000 in the hole we are leary to spend more money (we don't have) with the possibility of losing everything again. We are still thinking about the Swan program but after talking with them in April we don't know if its what we really want to get into. We'll let everyone know if anything comes up.
Friday, August 22, 2008
We lose another
Sorry to keep everyone waiting but this is so hard for me to write. Everyone reading know what happened to us back in April when our Dossier was rejected by the head of the MOE in Kazakhstan. Well here's what has happened since then.
On the following Wendsday we met with a caseworker for the PA. State Adoption Swan program and although this program is great for the children Sandy and I knew it wasn't for us. We really didn't expect an infant but I really want a child that's small enough to believe in Santa and that still has that Christmas magic. We left with a large pile of paperwork that we had aready gone thru once before. Here 2 years after we started we were right back to were we started only now our money, time and hope were all but gone. On thursday May 1st we felt defeated, we didn't feel like we could go through this process all over again we were ready to give up.
Then everything changed, Sandy was in Bed I was dozing off in front of the TV when the phone rang at 9:33 PM I missed the call but it was our friend Joyce (she is a reference on our homestudy). She left a message for Sandy to call her back it was really important and wanted Sandy to call at 11:30PM when she got home from work.
I woke Sandy a little after 11 and must have repeated myself 5 times that she had to call Joyce, little did I know that when I went to bed just how BIG this Call was.
Joyce's daughter has a friend that is pregnant and she is looking for a family to Adopt her child. Sandy and Joyce talked until almost 2 in the morning, Joyce wasn't sure if should have called us now or wait but we told her to give her our phone number and well see how things go. Friday May 2nd I had just arrived home from work and Sandy and I were talking about Joyce's call when the phone rang it was the Mother of our future Son or Daughter!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We talked and talked and talked we talked about all our hopes and fears and dreams and how much this means to her that her child will be in a good home that the child will be with someone who really REALLY WANT TO BE PARENTS.
We met on that Sunday Myself, Sandy and the Mother and Father of the child all finally met. We were all VERY nervous, how often do you meet the parents of a child that will become your Son or Daughter and how often do you get to meet the couple you'll be giving your child to. We talked for about two hours and She gave us the Sonogram pictures!! (I have them sitting here in front of me, all I can do know is sit here and wonder ) At the time all my dreams were coming true, I would get to go to her appointments , be there for Sonograms and do all of the things I thought I would NEVER get to do. And the due date was December 17th RIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS All this time I kept telling people all I want is a little Christmas magic and here it is!!
Sandy and I met with a lawyer to get things moving, we updated our FBI and Child Abuse clearances, had our medicals updated and new fingerprints done. Things were going great, Sandy and I weren't sure if we should make the big announcement or just walk in Christmas morning and stun everyone. My family reunion Aug 9th was going to be the day we would tell everyone.
Things were going great until late June, we found out the Birth Mother had Placenta previa a complication of pregnancy in which the placenta grows in the lowest part of the womb (uterus) and covers all or part of the cervix.
The placenta is the organ that nourishes the developing fetus.
During pregnancy, your placenta repositions itself as your uterus stretches and grows. In early pregnancy, a low-lying placenta is very common. But as your pregnancy progresses, the enlarging uterus should "pull" the placenta toward the top of your uterus. By your third trimester, the placenta should be near the top of your uterus, leaving the opening of the cervix clear for the delivery.
Sometimes, though, the placenta remains in the lower portion of the uterus, partly or completely covering this opening. There are three types of placenta previa:
* Marginal: The placenta is located near the edge of the cervix but does not block it.
* Partial: The placenta covers part of the cervical opening.
* Complete: The placenta completely covers the cervical opening.
Placenta previa occurs in 1 out of 200 pregnancies.
She was to be on complete bed rest until the baby was born. When July came our phone calls weren't being returned, we couldn't understand she always called us RIGHT BACK what was going on?
We later found out her father had to take her to see a specialist in Pittsburgh, and just a few weeks ago we found out she lost the baby.
Our hearts go out to her we know how bad she wanted to make our Dreams come true.
So now here we are, we've now lost TWO Children within 4 months. I really don't know where we go from here. The SWAN program is really our only option, we've spent so much on paperwork Domestic is pretty much out of the question and international is no longer an option.
It hurts so bad right now to do so so much, so much time and money so many hopes and dreams and to be no closer now than we were 15 years ago. Not 1 day goes by that I don't think about what could be. At my reunion my cousin asked where our child was? I have people at work who ask when we'll be going to Kazakhstan. This should be a happy time, the time we would be introducing our child to everyone and sharing our Adoption story. Now I can only wonder why not us, and will I ever become a father? My wish for my 39th birthday was to become a father before my 40th. Now on my 40th my wish is to one day be a father.
I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much.
Mother Teresa
Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all.
Dale Carnegie
On the following Wendsday we met with a caseworker for the PA. State Adoption Swan program and although this program is great for the children Sandy and I knew it wasn't for us. We really didn't expect an infant but I really want a child that's small enough to believe in Santa and that still has that Christmas magic. We left with a large pile of paperwork that we had aready gone thru once before. Here 2 years after we started we were right back to were we started only now our money, time and hope were all but gone. On thursday May 1st we felt defeated, we didn't feel like we could go through this process all over again we were ready to give up.
Then everything changed, Sandy was in Bed I was dozing off in front of the TV when the phone rang at 9:33 PM I missed the call but it was our friend Joyce (she is a reference on our homestudy). She left a message for Sandy to call her back it was really important and wanted Sandy to call at 11:30PM when she got home from work.
I woke Sandy a little after 11 and must have repeated myself 5 times that she had to call Joyce, little did I know that when I went to bed just how BIG this Call was.
Joyce's daughter has a friend that is pregnant and she is looking for a family to Adopt her child. Sandy and Joyce talked until almost 2 in the morning, Joyce wasn't sure if should have called us now or wait but we told her to give her our phone number and well see how things go. Friday May 2nd I had just arrived home from work and Sandy and I were talking about Joyce's call when the phone rang it was the Mother of our future Son or Daughter!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We talked and talked and talked we talked about all our hopes and fears and dreams and how much this means to her that her child will be in a good home that the child will be with someone who really REALLY WANT TO BE PARENTS.
We met on that Sunday Myself, Sandy and the Mother and Father of the child all finally met. We were all VERY nervous, how often do you meet the parents of a child that will become your Son or Daughter and how often do you get to meet the couple you'll be giving your child to. We talked for about two hours and She gave us the Sonogram pictures!! (I have them sitting here in front of me, all I can do know is sit here and wonder ) At the time all my dreams were coming true, I would get to go to her appointments , be there for Sonograms and do all of the things I thought I would NEVER get to do. And the due date was December 17th RIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS All this time I kept telling people all I want is a little Christmas magic and here it is!!
Sandy and I met with a lawyer to get things moving, we updated our FBI and Child Abuse clearances, had our medicals updated and new fingerprints done. Things were going great, Sandy and I weren't sure if we should make the big announcement or just walk in Christmas morning and stun everyone. My family reunion Aug 9th was going to be the day we would tell everyone.
Things were going great until late June, we found out the Birth Mother had Placenta previa a complication of pregnancy in which the placenta grows in the lowest part of the womb (uterus) and covers all or part of the cervix.
The placenta is the organ that nourishes the developing fetus.
During pregnancy, your placenta repositions itself as your uterus stretches and grows. In early pregnancy, a low-lying placenta is very common. But as your pregnancy progresses, the enlarging uterus should "pull" the placenta toward the top of your uterus. By your third trimester, the placenta should be near the top of your uterus, leaving the opening of the cervix clear for the delivery.
Sometimes, though, the placenta remains in the lower portion of the uterus, partly or completely covering this opening. There are three types of placenta previa:
* Marginal: The placenta is located near the edge of the cervix but does not block it.
* Partial: The placenta covers part of the cervical opening.
* Complete: The placenta completely covers the cervical opening.
Placenta previa occurs in 1 out of 200 pregnancies.
She was to be on complete bed rest until the baby was born. When July came our phone calls weren't being returned, we couldn't understand she always called us RIGHT BACK what was going on?
We later found out her father had to take her to see a specialist in Pittsburgh, and just a few weeks ago we found out she lost the baby.
Our hearts go out to her we know how bad she wanted to make our Dreams come true.
So now here we are, we've now lost TWO Children within 4 months. I really don't know where we go from here. The SWAN program is really our only option, we've spent so much on paperwork Domestic is pretty much out of the question and international is no longer an option.
It hurts so bad right now to do so so much, so much time and money so many hopes and dreams and to be no closer now than we were 15 years ago. Not 1 day goes by that I don't think about what could be. At my reunion my cousin asked where our child was? I have people at work who ask when we'll be going to Kazakhstan. This should be a happy time, the time we would be introducing our child to everyone and sharing our Adoption story. Now I can only wonder why not us, and will I ever become a father? My wish for my 39th birthday was to become a father before my 40th. Now on my 40th my wish is to one day be a father.
I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much.
Mother Teresa
Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all.
Dale Carnegie
Monday, August 18, 2008
I Promise
I know I know everyone has been waiting. I promise to let everyone know what's going on this week. We've just been very very busy and it will take some time to explain everything. Today is my 40th BIRTHDAY so it won't be tonite. Thanks to everyone who has left us comments, I'll write soon I Promise.
Sunday, August 3, 2008
Saturday, July 19, 2008
WE LOVE NEW YORK & RUBY FOOS
The Tour Bus we road around town Saturday
We loved New York!!!! Sorry Julie we didn't get to see Bon Jovi, but at $1500 from scalpers for tickets to a free concert we'll pass ( We did see Blue Oyster Cult tonite though). And THANK you LISA- RUBY FOOS WAS YUMMY YUMMY YUMMY and Darlene for telling about the Circle Line Tour.
We woke up early Saturday and had a very good but expensive breakfast on the top of the Empire Hotel. This is the hotel we stayed at in New york, the Empire was very nice ($799 a night for the room we had). It's on 63rd next to the Lincoln Center, 1 block to Central park and right across from Madonna's apartment!! Nope NO A-Rod sightings ;-)!! We walked to times square and paid $98 to take the City Sights NY hop-on hop off Double decker Tour Bus. The all around tour took us uptown, down town, Brooklyn Tour, Night tour, free admission into the New York Historical Society or the Museum of the City of N.Y. and the Circle Line 75-minute Harbor Cruise. We took the down town tour Around the Empire state building, Wall St. Ground zero and much much more. We were planning to take the harbor cruise but found out from other tourist that you really really needed to be there at 8 AM just to have a shot at the last tour leaving for the day at three. So we just took the bus for the uptown tour around Central park, hells kitchen, Harlem, past the Bon Jovi concert line (27 blocks long 7 hours before the concert) the Metropolitian and more. The night tour was worth every penny we paid. It starts in Times Square goes thru the downtown area and over the Brooklyn bridge and to a ferry landing with a Beautiful view of the NEW YORK City skyline and the statue of Liberty. Our tour guide was wonderful and even played some ole Blue eyes songs. After the tour we ate dinner at Ruby Foos (Thanks Lisa) very good chinese food, a very chic place to eat right on Broadway in times square. It's really funny because this is the 1st place we ran into after we arrived friday.
After dinner we went into Toy's R Us, the ESPN Zone, the Hersheys and MnM's store and went to a few clubs and enjoyed the lights and sights in times square.
Sunday we just walked around the hotel area and inside the Shops on the circle shopping mall.
At 3:30 our Limo picked us up and took us to the airport. This is was the only bad part of the trip. We arived at 4 for a 6 o'clock flight and were moved up to a 4:30 flight seeing how our 6 o'clock flight was delayed and we wouldn't make our connection to Erie. We made it to the plane and then sat in the runway for 3 hours!!! Turns out some bad weather closed the flight path we were suppose to take! Our plane ran low on fuel and returned to the terminal, an hour later we finally reboarded the plane a finally took-off at 9:30 pm (this was the time we should have arrived in Erie).
To make a long story short we arrived in Cleveland at 10:30 paid $114 for a hotel room we didn't get settled into until 12:30 AM woke up at 5 AM- arrived at the airport at 5 AM and were home in Erie at 9:30 AM. Other than the delay we had a GREAT TIME IN NEW YORK CITY!! We just wish we had some more time to see the sights, the bus tour was realy the best way to see everything but we really wanted to walk around China town or little Italy. Guess I'll just need to win another trip so we can visit NEW YORK one more time. We love New York.
Friday, July 11, 2008
Sports Center Has New Host look out NEW YORK
We made it safe and sound to New York city. It's only 10:00 but we are beat, waking at 3 AM , 2 flights and walking over 30 blocks will do that. The day started out a little rough up at 3 AM at the airport before 5 and finding out they gave me 3 tickets to Philadelphia and only gave Sandy a ticket to Hartford!! After a few stressful moments things were taken care of and boths flights were on time and we had no more problems. We arrived at the Hartford airport to find a LIMO!! Waiting for us to take us the ESPN studios. When we arrived we found 1 other couple from Philly whom had also won the same contest we had ( Joe and Charlene). On the way out to start our tour the 1st person we walked past was Chris Carter (former Minnesota Viking). We had lunch at the ESPN CAFE it was VERY VERY nice. ESPN tables cushioned chairs, plasma TVs to watch VERY NICE!!! After lucnh we had our tour guide Joe show us the ins and out of ESPN and we got to tour the NEW and Old Studios. Everything was very impressive and I was in my glory with all the Sports memoribila they had. After the tour our LIMO picked us up for a 2 hour ride to New York city!! Our hotel is VERY VERY nice. We are just 1/2 a block central park. We just walked over 30 blocks and found Ruby Foos near times square (this restraunt was by Lisa and will most likly be were we eat dinner Saturday). Sandy wanted steak and we found a nice place with a decent price dinner. Today we walked in Central park, and around Time square. We also found the ESPN ZONE (KIM) and walked around and took some pictures. The Toys R US is huge and has a ferris wheel inside the store. We also found Radio City music hall and the David Letterman studios. Tommorow we'll take to city circle tour and ride around the city and take a boat ride to the statue of liberty.
We'll I'm really starting to doze and Sandy is already sound asleep so I'm off to bed and look forward to another big day tommorow.
Nite Nite
Sunday, July 6, 2008
ESPN BOUND!!
Congrats Kim on correctly guessing we are going to visit the ESPN studios in Bristol Conn.
I won a contest back in Dec. from the Dr. Pepper cap codes!! We'll be flying into Bristol and getting a tour of the ESPN studios then driven to New York where we are free to do as we wish for a day and a half. We hope to have our schedule tommorow (we were suppose to have it by last Thursday) so we'll know where we'll be staying and can plan on what to do. I did see Bon Jovi is playing a free concert in Central Park or we might take a sight-seeing tour. There is just so much to see in New York we'll just try to do as much as possible. Anyone have any tips as where to go or what to see, places to eat etc... let us know!!
I won a contest back in Dec. from the Dr. Pepper cap codes!! We'll be flying into Bristol and getting a tour of the ESPN studios then driven to New York where we are free to do as we wish for a day and a half. We hope to have our schedule tommorow (we were suppose to have it by last Thursday) so we'll know where we'll be staying and can plan on what to do. I did see Bon Jovi is playing a free concert in Central Park or we might take a sight-seeing tour. There is just so much to see in New York we'll just try to do as much as possible. Anyone have any tips as where to go or what to see, places to eat etc... let us know!!
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