Doing it all Wrong?!?!!?!?

Woman swaps two kids for cockatoo, $175

Police in the southern US state of Louisiana have arrested a woman who allegedly traded two young children for an exotic bird and a bit of cash. Donna Greenwell, a 51-year-old long distance trucker, has been charged with aggravated kidnapping and is being held in jail on a bond of $100,000 after she allegedly swapped a four- and five-year-old in her care for a cockatoo and $175. The story began several weeks ago when Greenwell pulled her cattle truck into a livestock dealer’s to make a delivery, Dupre said. A couple had put up a flier at the dealer’s, advertising a cockatoo they had for sale for $1,500. Ms Greenwell saw the picture of the cockatoo along with the phone number, and with her raising birds already, she called them up. The conversation started with buying the cockatoo but when Greenwell found out they were a childless couple, it led up to trading the bird for the kids. The deal was sealed, and Greenwell handed over a five-year-old boy and a four-year-old girl to the Romeros in exchange for the bird and $175. The children weren’t even Greenwell’s biological offspring. afp

It's been so long since I've last posted anything, but there is nothing to post.
This time last year we were getting really excited, knowing our time to travel was coming soon. Little did we know that in the next few months to come we would lose two children.
This past Christmas was really hard for us, we though that we'd have our little girl home from Kazakhstan and we would be celebrating our 1st Christmas together.
Dec. 16th is also when our other child would have been born, A Christmas baby. The birth mother was planning on trying to have the baby on Dec 6th
It's been almost a year since we recieved the bad news from CHI and nothing has changed. Sandy was talking with a doctor about Adopting (many pregnant single girls not knowing what to do could have been told about us looking to Adopt). After 3 canceled appointments we found out he left the practice.
We've also talked with an Agency about domestic adoption but the $11,000 they wanted up front put an end to that.
Right now we really don't know what we want to do. Today was the 1st time in a really long time that I went to CHI's website to read the blogs only to be disgusted.
So many families having dossiers returned and nothing but trouble with trying to Adopt from Kaz. WHY!!! So many families want to adopt and so many children in need of a good home what is the PROBLEM!!!!
I just wish people could understand how painful for us families. The end of last year was REALLY hard for us. It was just to hard to be around children without getting upset and people couldn't understand why and would even get mad at us. We were even told "I didn't attend any Funeral so I don't know why your so upset"
I guess people can't understand what it's like to try so hard for so long only to have all your hopes and dreams crushed.
We might not of had a funeral but every day I feel like a part of me has died. Every day I look at that big pile of paperwork, the little outfits our child would of worn , I can't even to walk into the bedroom that I worked so hard on last year.
Every single day when we go somewhere and we see a family with children it hurts so bad. I will always wonder what could have been, and wonder about the child we would have met in Kazakhstan. I think thats what makes it so much harder is that there is no fond memories that we can look back upon.
As for now I don't know what we will do, the SWAN program here in PA. is most likely our best option, but after talking to them last year we really don't know right now.
I did just recently run into a friend of mine who just adopted through the Swan program so We'll talk with him and maybe something will become of it.
People told us you need to get out there and let it be known we are looking to adopt
Maybe we could trade our birds. ;-)

There are those that look at things the way they are, and ask why? I dream of things that never were, and ask why not.
Robert F. Kennedy